It would be that I involved him in all of that. Albert was, in the end, a true friend to me, perhaps even more than that. He forgave me for everything and did not even hate me for it in the end.
It was his…feelings for me and mine for him that made it possible for him to stop Gankutsuou from taking me over completely.
Even faced with me at my darkest, and the threat that I would kill him myself and also let Haydee die at the hands of his father, he still cared for me enough to stop me.
In that moment, and even before then, somehow, he became the person most important to me. And I feel horrible for leaving him the way I did. I only hope…that he found happiness somehow.
That is all I can ever dare to hope.